Been Better. Been Worse. What Am I?
Not much to talk about. There's been no riding and I'm busy as frig with the mag, and I MAY have to push a deadline back (not happy), but I'd rather delay a few days and put out something great than "blahhhhh." On top of all that I had Root Canal Round One today. Yeah, that was fun. Nothing like smelling the motor of the dentist's drill as it spins away just inches below your nose. Ouch. Insult to injury was having to listen to my dentist (a super nice guy), hum Marvin Gaye's "Sexual Healing" whilst he drilled my tooth. Damn, THAT was SO uncalled for.
In actual bike related stuff... I'm coming to grips mentally with WHAT exactly I am becoming as a cyclist. Me thinks the ship has done sailed on ever getting fast, or even competing at the mid pack level again. So what am I to do? Accept it and just race for fuck's sake? Nothing wrong with that! Fight it, and continue to make a fool of myself? Again, nothing wrong with that! I've never looked at racing as "competing," but dropping from the mid pack in most of my races was a real blow to my fragile, homeless, retarded man living under a bridge type ego. Deep down I look at endurance racing as a very well organized group ride.
I still want to race, because THAT is what I do in the summer. I do plan to race less, and try to have more fun when I AM racing. I am not longer billing myself as a "bike racer." Just a guy who likes to ride his bike a lot, and when I race my bike, I want to be in the saddle for a long time. XC is great, but not for me. If I am going to take a day to travel, race, etc., I want to race more than 20 miles. Again, don't give me shit about racing XC, because I dig it, it's just not my thang. Oh well, I'm sure between some good food, good beer, long rides, and pharmaceuticals I'll figure it all out. As long as I'm riding, I will be good. Hmmm, I wonder if I can ride tomorrow???
Anyway, this was sort of one of those post for posts sake type posts (did I say "post" enough?").
Later.
posted by Jason @ 7:53 PM
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7 Comments:
Oh no here is the annual late fall / early winter Jason "I am retiring from racing" blog post. Are you sure they didn't play Morrissey during your dentist visit? Wait until spring & you will be back in a somewhat good mood & ready to race mid pack again. Hang in there!
Thanks Don. Not "retiring", just not pretending that I "compete" in the races that I do do. The races are to fun to give up completely.
Hmm I’m familiar with foot and toe fetishes (among a host of others ;-) but a mouth/tooth fetish held by a dentist? Well it sounds fitting enough what with the latex gloves, the phallic looking power tool and your “date” all gassed up and laid out in the chair.
“When I get that feelin’ I need sexual healin’.”
So dude be honest….Do you turn your head & spit or swallow?
Ride a lot then come join me for the CTR 2011.
Peace,
Metro
Here's my rationalization when I get down about my lack of racing ability. The point is always to see how you do against yourself but that doesn't always work. Just remember...only about, maybe, 25% of the field has a real shot at the podium. Without the rest of us back of pack and mid pack folks I doubt the promoters make enough jack to put the races on. It's our econoic resposibility to race. This could be a bunch of crap but I use it on myself anyway.
economic I mean
Ahhhh, the genesis for Team Weak and Feeble, the reality that being a "racer" is often different from being a "rider" and when your life moves away from being a racer (sometime with us kicking and screaming) it can take time to settle into and enjoy being "just" a rider.
My motto now is that if I enter a race and it costs $100 and takes me 10 hours and the winner took 5 hours, I ended up paying $10 an hour to race where he paid $20- it's all about economics!
Economics indeed. That's always been one of the bonuses of endurance racing. Like I said if I'm gonna drive x amount of miles, I better be in the saddle for more than a couple hours! That's why I can't get into Cross. Believe, me I've done it, I loved it (even though I sucked), but I just can't justify all the expense to race for under an hour. That is NO offense to those who love it.
And Metro... dude said spit, so I spit. Then I paid HIM $400??? CTR 2011 eh?
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