Back At It (About Me?)
One of my mid year goals was to start making The Soiled Chamois less about me, my lackluster racing and all of my issues. Sadly it seems I can't resist, but I will make it brief. I promise.
I've had a nice May so far, and I'm piling up some nice miles and hours. Despite this, I think most of my early to mid season racing is done. I plan to race a race here and there, but most of the races will be gravel type races or XC races or a combination of both including this Saturday's Arcadian Grit & Gravel race which is a combination of double track, gravel and singletrack. I'm just not feeling "right" on the mountain bike.
It seems the lingering shoulder pain from my crash back in March, my continuing back issues and the mental issues associated with all of that have played a bigger part than I thought. Sure go ahead, call me a pussy and I WILL STOMP YOU. Seriously, I will stomp you like an ant.
No... I won't (can't). It just felt sorta good to say that.
Not having mobility in my upper arm and shoulder has been a real pain (pun intended), but racing or not racing I still can't help but ride. It's what I do, not matter my weight or my season's goals.
Not feeling good on singletrack sucks. That is the place where I would go to find the most peace. Now it seems the place I go to remind myself that I'm getting old, that I'm pretty much falling apart physically and mentally and that I can no longer do the things that I USED to do on a mountain bike. In other words most often this season I have come back from mountain bike rides feeling like shit. Not all the time, but often enough.
I really thought I was starting to "comeback" to my mid pack form last year. I was feeling better on the bike, got a ton or riding in and the most racing I have ever done in my life. This year, I have taken a step back (maybe two steps). But I will salvage something from it. While I enjoy racing and riding singletrack, what matters to me most is time on the bike. No matter what the bike, not matter what the surface. Just time on the bike.
A look at mid-may so far...