Where The Hell?

I am so bad at this blog now. I mean since 2005 this has been a part of me, but somehow, I have let it slip away. Maybe it started when I started mentally slipping away to concentrate on XXC, maybe when it was when I realized that I am just one sub-par mountain bike racer in a sea of sub-par mountain bike racers and what I personally do is of no importance to anyone other than maybe my dog... Maybe not even him!

Over the past couple years, this year in particular, I have become even more comfortable with being a non-racer. Yes, I've raced, I plan to race more, but I can't say I've TRAINED for racing or even really cared about how I did. "If you ain't first, your last" my daddy used to say (he didn't). Sure, I hope to come back next year, do more, and try outdo this year (which shouldn't be too hard). But alas here I am, like it or not, still blogging this crap...

The past week has been better than last week (ride wise), but still not great. A couple sweet dirt road/gravel rides and some sweet singletrack made the week all worth while. On top of that I got a balls deep into some XXC work.

I am happy and sad to say that after a shitty spring, a sub-par early summer I am FINALLY feeling good on the bike. The major goal is going to go into this off season motivated to get in better shape so as to do more next year. Lots of other things I have to get done with the mag first though. The coming year (or at least issue) is what I am dubbing the "make it or break it" issue. I'd like to do a small print run, get the mag in bike shop and let folks see that the mag is and what it could be. If that fails, so be it. I would have don 18 issues of a magazine that I am pretty damn proud of. It won't be the end of the world if it goes away.

Hope to get more riding in the next couple days. HOPE to.

Later.